Alright sooo, Hi, this is me, you can call me Joe. So listen, I'm usually never on a kind of site like this, im either playing some video games or just on facebook or something at this hour. A while back, I was told something from my father. Now with the taking into the account in 25 years old. He thought that I might seriously have asbergers.
Now I have NEVER had the impression i had anything like this... I was diagnosed with ADHD that was never fully cured. I mean the physical traits faded out, but the social ackward elements remain.
Like I CANNOT maintain a conversation to save my life, I've tried and felt ackward coming out of it every single time. Like certain people understand me, and I love that one person, but every else who dosent I just dont really like the quality of people who have too much pride in their own appearance, abilities, achievements, etc. : the quality of being vaincare for. I mean i care, but eh, friends are overated and complicated.
Every aspect of my communicating skills from the time I was 5 has been kinda diminished. I verbally stutter, I physically can't do cursive writing, and i have slight dyslexia when I try ti type out on the keyboard. <----- see what I mean? I just left that in there!
And relationships, boy let me tell on one hand (not including the thumb) just how many I had. Well i'll let you guess, but maintaining a relationship and knowing a sense about coupth, morales, and even general demeanor you have when your out with someone, is very very hard to me.
Like, all my life I felt... different, and for god knows I never wondered why that was. I felt like I didn't fit in with absolutley anyone and I was always so frustrated when i didn't even KNOW what asbergers was. So I just thought it was me, I mean, i'm not writing it off as a way to right off excuses or anything. But It just feels good to know that, I wasn't just a messed up kid, I had a reason for it.
