Hi, I’m a mam to a beautiful 4 year old boy who is currently waiting to be assessed for autism. I’ve been told there is currently a 4 year wait and I’m struggling at the moment. My child has support plan put in place at school, which we are working with the school. He attends speech and language as he is in the early stages in his speech and understanding. He still in nappies as he’s struggles to understand what the toilet is, when he needs to go or when he’s had an accident, as he’s unable to say and understand. He uses a pushchair when out as he struggles with changes to routines and has no awareness of danger and struggles to take him to new places on my own as I fear of the melt down as he’s hits him self and myself by headbutting, throwing himself and objects on the floor and high pitch screams.
i feel like I’m a failure and I’m really struggling as my child in the only one in school who has additional needs in his class and he’s missing out on school activities and is kept behind. It’s hard to watch other children play and my child is on his own, trying to join in but getting ignored. I know children and adults with autism like to play or be independent but it’s hard to see as I know what it feels like to be alone all the time, I struggled to make friends at school and later in life due to my anxiety and past history of bullying, I work in a nursery and gets told by my manger I should know what the expect but it’s completely different when it’s is your own child and I get no support to the point it is affecting my own mental health as I feel like I’m alone in this and no one will want to listen or help.
Sorry for the rant but I need to get it out with how I’m feeling
