Hi this is an advocacy question. I have quitepian prescribed to keep my psychosis under control and its vital for my sleep and thus rest to enable me to function. The doctor without warning just put me on a 7day prescription from 28 days. Reason is i had failed to complete a blood test required to allow doc to maintain my prescrpition of this vital meds.
Ok so i really stuggle keeping my 28 days repeat prescription administration let alone now every 7 days, thus i keep missing the day i should re order. Plus the requirements to interact now have quadrupled and my anxiety subsquently tips into the unable to function end.
Also due to missing my repeat prescription requirements thus left now between prescription medication less. Consequently loss of sleep further reduced functioning etc etc negative cycle.
Tried to self advocate with doc surgery made a mess of that and was coldly told self refer to mental health services, i read online they dont have to prescribe if you dont get blood test.
So i asked if they could help and send me the bloods form but week later still no blood forms in post. Reminder email to them sent. I am experiencing uncomfortable reductions in capacity to function now due to worrying i wont pass a blood test.
Worrying if i dont pass i will loose this med. These meds that since being prescribed has changed my life for better. I also had an exceptionally bad blood experience last time i was in hosptal due to autsim related dehydration as i forget to drink. I experienced 9 attempts to get blood. So sensorial issues r preventing me engaging with a blood test.
I dont think i havexarticulated how trauma inducing that series of failed blood attempts was in termscof how it effects my autism. I feel very much like this all exacerbates my difficulites and i am unable to access help due to the problems this creats makes me feel less than my normal barriers, to seaking help due to socisl anxiety.
I feel unable to solve this prblem and feel some how its very wrong to use my medication and subsequently feel like my very condition is being used against me. I know its important i get my bloods done but i feel like my doctor is punishing me and it feels cruel to use my health and worsening health to motivate me.
Unfortunately the reality is simple, i am less able and less motivated to be able to perform the blood test than i would ordinarily be due to sleep lose and a real fear my life without quitpain may return.
It feels realy really cruel! Also my doctor now feels unsafe, currently i just know i will eventually run out of motivation to keep the 7 day new prescription order requirements up and i will stop trying and stop the meds coz i cant face the blood test or the confrontation with the doctor.
I feel at the moment my doctor has a desire to get me off his books and i feel i cant go to him now for help. Its 2am and i have no Quetiapine and i am wide awake and i know i will crash !
My pyshcosis is increasing as i am fast becoming more unable to cope with intrusive thoughts due to sleep loss and erratic medication now, fear of the blood test, fear of loosing my doctor, fear of getting worse, fear of my mental health deterating.
Can anyone help ?
