Struggling i really am.

Hello my name is Chloe. From 5 years old my son harry has been labeled. He has really struggled over the year to form connections and once they have been formed they have moved schools so established friendships have broke down

He was assessed in reception for autism is reception and a TA throwing the asperges remark in a conversations. 

Fast forward to now hes in year 7. He's struggling and I am certainly He isn't picking up on social ques this roasting culture he has no idea how to do as he's just not understanding of it. It upsets me to think he's alone most days. It really breaks my heart. But tonight I've done my nightly check and looks like a pupil is taking advantage and mocking the way he acts and has passed his mobile number to another person who seems to be catfishing him. Thankfully he has ignored it completely but I then stumbled across a video a so called friend has made saying its autism awareness week let's think about Harry. With a photo of him. It breaks my heart. It really does. Im not sure if it was malicious but people in the GC responded so true.. haha etc. 

We began the diagnosis process in year 4. With his assessment being the last day of term in July. We were told his multi disciplinary meeting will be held the end of this month october. What that even is I do not know. Does this mean we will get a straight answer if he is or isn't? 

We have never ever wanted to tell harry he could be potentially autistic never let on or anything we told him it was a milestone check at the assessment unit as he's always being tested for things being a august baby at school. We decided it was his best interests to not have any interventions in secondary until we know for sure if he is or isn't from the assessment to then be given the support he needs in school to somewhat give him a fair chance like every other pre teen. But now im just feeling broken and a failed parent and I did the wrong thing by doing this. I just figured he doesnt need to know if he isn't in fact autism until proven by the assessment. It hurts my heart he doesn't have a friendship group and I ask him and his brothers all the time who did you play with and who did you sit next to at lunch etc. His replies are vague and sometimes I think he even lies to me like he did on Friday when he said he met a friend and went to school and skipped the shop even though I knew he was lying as he had coins in stead of a note. Which made me question him and in turn he then told me he didn't and got a boost bar and walked alone. I just feel so sad. I want to home school him so bad but I need a job and money a wage for the mortgage etc. Im so sad and broke. I can't sleep tonight as I just feel there are kids taking advantage of his kindness and him in general on a day to day basis and taking the mic out of him. 

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