Hi, my son is on the waiting list for autism and ADHD diagnosis, and in the last year his mental health has declined. He has missed so much school as he refuses to go in. When I ask why he just breaks down, he was bullied in the past, finds learning hard and says he doesn't feel safe in school. We are awaiting a CAHMS referral and ive had meeting after meeting with the SENCO who is applying for EHCP but can obviously take a while and also I said to her thats all well and good but I cant even get him out of the house. He has expressed on several occasions that he doesnt want to be here anymore, that he has no future and wishes I never had him. It is breaking my heart seeing him like this and im mentally exhausted as the anger/tearful breakdowns are becoming more frequent. He has done MHST in school twice, he also did a connected minds 6 seelssions and ive done parent led cbt, im also doing a Level 2 understanding autism course in the hope I can try to understand him more. All school seem to really care about is his attendance and at every meeting they always have to drop that comment in at the end. I just feel like despite being told that he really needs to take baby steps and it could take a long time before he goes back in full time they are just constantly pressuring me and him. I also have a 2 year old daughter so everything is just getting too much and I dont know what more I can do.