Hi folks! New here, recently diagnosed

Living up to my autism diagnosis, it's a bit stressful trying to figure what the "correct" way to "announce" myself to this community (a formal how-to guide would have been comforting lol), but to avoid lurking in the shadows indefinitely, hello everyone!

I'm a 42 yo, assigned female at birth but non-binary identifying Londoner of SE Asian ethnicity who finally got a late/adult autism diagnosis after a (hopefully half) lifetime trying and failing to mask to fit in, and the consequences of these.

I got on my local NHS waiting list last Spring and was recently offered/had my assessments with/via their new partnership with Clinical Partners, having gotten the impression that the best way to advocate for my various needs would be with a formal, and NHS diagnosis. I don't want to info dump, something I excel in (!), but whilst grateful to be in what I'm very aware is a privileged position w.r.t recognition of my neurospicy-ness, it's been a journey with non-trivial mental and physical pain, which I've been reflecting on with some sadness about whether any was avoidable...but hindsight is, of course, a wonderful thing.

I know from the post-diagnosis materials that people react different, but despite having pushed against various resistance to get to this point, I've not really come to terms with/embraced my long-desired outcome, when I feel like I should feel more when this is what I wanted?! Arghhh so confused...

*Anyway*, sorry for rambling/if I didn't introduce myself "properly"! Hope you're all doing ok and it's really nice to be here Smiley

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  • Congratulations on your diagnosis and welcome to the community!

    I’m still working through things some 19 months after my own diagnosis. For me, it was one journey to get there, and it’s been a whole new after it.

    I’d encourage you to give yourself time. It’s a different experience for each of us, of course, but perhaps try not to pressure yourself into feeling any particular way. 

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  • Congratulations on your diagnosis and welcome to the community!

    I’m still working through things some 19 months after my own diagnosis. For me, it was one journey to get there, and it’s been a whole new after it.

    I’d encourage you to give yourself time. It’s a different experience for each of us, of course, but perhaps try not to pressure yourself into feeling any particular way. 

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