Heyo guys!
Well, seems my initial hunch was right.
Since the last time I posted here I've been reading (mostly medical journals, diagnostic articles and the embrace autism website) and listening to accounts from others in the community on socials.
I'm still waiting on the full report to be finished but I've been diagnosed. What a relief! Genuinely thought I was gaslighting myself there.
Unfortunately, I had to go private. Ironically when I got contacted with the assessment outcome I had the NHS reject the referral for an assessment with them.
Glad to have my Dad to support me.
Made more friends in the art community who are diagnosed AuDHDers. On that note I still think autism doesn't cover my whole situation but it's a start.
Been more patient with myself but there's still that struggle with accepting this (spoiler alert: it's probably internalized ableism) and the obvious "How am I supposed to get a job to earn money to live?"
It's been on my mind ever since I got the outcome and the situation in the UK and Scotland isn't too comforting either.
I was also wondering what is the best way to go about and ADHD screening with NHS Scotland. I'm kinda clueless and don't want to go private to find out it's not seen as valid by them.
I understand this a bit more, most of my issues are executive dysfunction but take it with a pinch of salt since I'm still reading on it.
Finally, thanks for all the lovely and welcoming replies on my first post. It's nice to know there's a community of people like me