Hi! I thought I should join here, I don't usually do this keyboard-bashing stuff but I spend enough time using the computer for less productive things so I suppose I should do something semi-useful and join some kinda discussions :)
I'm 20 and I have a diagnosis of aspergers syndrome since I was 7 (I think I was 7 anyway). I have a nickname "Jolly", which I used to get called at college, because apparently I'm always happy (it's my default state lol). From my POV, aspergers is more a genetic difference than a disorder, though that's my opinion and I hope it's right.
Most of the problems and things I'd like to find a solution to, are related to how society (fails to) adapt and fit this - I finished my first year of college but didn't make it through the second, and have never held a full-time job for more than two months (I literally want to kill myself when working as a wage-bot - such a depressing waste of time) - though I'm a perfectly productive and sane person.
I've noticed that my way of thinking is really abstract and "fundamental" if that's the best word for it - when I was a kid I used to ponder these seemingly meaningless things such as "how can I see things without my eyes when I think of them?", "how can other people see things that aren't in my field of vision?" and "why is it that I react to pain?" - turns out these kind of abstract concepts make up the framework from which I view reality itself, and also seem to be the basis for my above-average intelligence and below-average affect - sort of proving the whole "genius is crazy" thing.
I wonder how many others out there feel like this? I'm sometimes lost for words to describe how I feel - does this describe how anyone else feels? Do you ever feel like an alien, or some kind of other life form, in a way, even?
