I don't really know how to introduce myself without saying anything personal, but I'll try.
I (35M) have just been diagnosed in the last couple of months. I had long suspected, but it never seemed too important to find out, until recently.
I've spent the majority of my adult life in self imposed isolation. Outside of work, and a couple of local games clubs, I rarely interact with anybody. I always suffered from low self esteem, but I just didn't feel like I could really connect with other people. I just immerse myself in fantasy and sci-fi, playing games, and building and painting models (at the moment, Warhammer40k, Gunpla, and Infinity).
On the last couple of years especially I have really been trying to find friends, and even possibly find love. But my few limited experiences have been bad, and left me feeling even more alone than ever.
I just want closeness, companionship, and intimacy like anybody else does. But at this point, I feel like it might just not be possible. People keep saying you just need to keep trying, but it's SO hard to hold onto hope when there has been so little reward for the effort.
I know this is probably pretty depressing reading, but Ive never been able to lie, so I'm not going to pretend things are currently all sunshine and roses.
I don't really know if this was any good, or if I've just scared everybody away... But yeah! I guess this is me 