need help with accepting daughters have autism

i have 2 daughters 5 (diagnosed autism and LD's) in special school with statement and 14 (High Functioning Autism) in mainstream school on school action plus. I have only recently been up front and honest in saying to my family that i am struggling to accept the autism i've always been in denial. Every time they act say or do weird things it makes me cringe feel embarrased and i just want to run in the opposite direction. i feel shame and guilt at saying such things but i have to be honest. i am currently on anti depressants and awaiting psycholgical assistance. can anyone help me accept them for who they are i'm desparate as it's affecting all our lives.

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  • Thanks to you all for your advice. i want to point out that it is me who has the problem im the one who wants to push them away I am in a constant battle with myself I know I am severely depressed and this affects the way you think but I can't stop thinking negatively. However I will take the advice and read the stories. PuzzlePiece where can I learn more about Buddhism. sorry if my being honest offends i really wish i wasn't like it maybe then i could find peace

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  • Thanks to you all for your advice. i want to point out that it is me who has the problem im the one who wants to push them away I am in a constant battle with myself I know I am severely depressed and this affects the way you think but I can't stop thinking negatively. However I will take the advice and read the stories. PuzzlePiece where can I learn more about Buddhism. sorry if my being honest offends i really wish i wasn't like it maybe then i could find peace

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