Published on 12, July, 2020
All my life I've been treated like a weirdo by people. My parents, my brother, school, other kids at school, a lot of work colleagues.All made me feel like I'm not normal. People always pointing at me and laughing to themselves. I struggle in social situations. I struggle at work. I got in trouble for doing stuff I didn't even realise I WAS doing.
I'm working on getting a diagnosis and I had forms to give to my wife and kids
My oldest daughter says she can't ever remember me successfully holding down a job. My own daughter said that. It hurt.
Mother in law refusing to fill one out because she doesn't want to offend me. That says it all doesn't it?
I never asked to be born. But I was and I've been made to feel like a loser ever since.
It's just all been a huge massive failure. All of it and I wish I didn't have to be here. I wish I never existed or I was born someone else.
My youngest daughter is home educated so I don't work so I can take care of all that. Wife is supportive. But I hate myself. I hate this life.
I don't know who to talk to
Chasing Rainbows, by Shed Seven, springs to mind; with my life.
I could NEVER hold down a job, and ended up angry and resentful. Giving up, on life, in my prime.