Published on 12, July, 2020
I’m jai/jaidan, i don’t have a preference on the name lol. i haven’t been diagnosed, but i’m working on it. i’m pretty unsure of some things and i don’t really know how to explain it but i’ll try my best. so i’ve always felt off. i got tested at an early age (i was in 2-4 grade) for just any neurodivergency, but the doctor could only tell my mom that i am neurodivergent buttt it was too early to determine for me any specific diagnosis. i also have always acted more mature than i am or have always kinda been emotionally intelligent. i went to a GT school starting in second grade too. i have a horrible memory so i can’t quite recall any early signs of autism in myself but i got burnt out of that school very fast. i know i’ve almost never been good with change and loud noises or overwhelming environments. i just feel like one day everything reset and now i have more of these things popping up. has anyone else experienced this? honestly i think mine may be due to trauma, like my “reset”. so much has happened to me in the past two years which resulted in me getting PTSD. i feel like my brain barriers got torn down and i kinda imploded from trying to conform to others for so long that now i can barely function. have any of y’all felt this way or experienced this thing? i’m sorry if it’s not a good explanation btw, i don’t know how to best organize my thoughts on it rn. i also experience things like getting extremely overwhelmed easily, not picking up on social cues, strong sense of justice, trouble controlling body temp/heat regulation, parroting, lack of empathy, trouble with routine change, and things like that.
Welcome to here.
That sounds a lot like what I went through. I coped enough up to a certain age that no one picked up on it being autism; all my difficulties around people were just tagged as social anxiety disorder.
Then kinda suddenly things just fell apart. I started experiencing sensory overload in a way I never had before where everything felt totally overwhelming and all my autistic traits came to the front. Building routines became the most important thing for me to rebuild my sanity. It was still years after that (slowly recovering) before I was told it was autism.
I hope things get easier for you soon.
i’ve also been labeled as having social anxiety because of how i act and how i acted when i was younger. my problem is also that i can’t tell if my ptsd is causing me to get overwhelmed easily or if the ptsd and autistic traits feed into each other. i have therapy for the trauma stuff and i just hope that’ll help me figure it out.