Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I'm new here and this is my first time reaching out on any kind of social forum. I was recently diagnosed with autism, I have struggled a lot my whole life with social interactions and due to so many misunderstandings and trauma I have spent a long time believing there is something wrong with me/that I'm a bad person (because no matter how hard I would try I would still upset or annoy people without understanding or realising).I was previously diagnosed with bipolar but recently it has been concluded that it was always autism and ADHD, which due to not being picked up on led to many problems that then caused the psychosis like secondary issues.I've lived more than 10 years now in isolation, and live alone. I don't go outside and I am afraid to be seen by others or interact with them so I only see doctors and such for my many health issues. I rely on pets and online interactions to deal with the loneliness, but found that online gaming communities are very toxic and I couldn't cope in them anymore.I have really severe anxiety, so have never been able to reach out in any communities before now. I hope I haven't overshared, as I know I have a habit of doing so and annoying people.It would be nice to have people to talk to though, so thank you for your time if anyone has spent it reading this :)
Hello and welcome, I like your username btw, don't be afraid because you'll fit right in, some of us get very passionate about our experinces but everyone is alright really, even the people who you'd think you have nothing in common with can surprise you, it's one of the great things about us all being a community here so make yourself at home.
Thanks, bees are also cool I can understand the passion. I get a lot of hyperfixations with things and can be pretty overwhelming to neurotypicals. I also feel like with my history and past I basically come with a disclaimer at this point or some kind of warning.I already feel welcomed and relieved that I took the step to reach out.