Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi there good people. I am hoping to talk to fellow ND folks in a world of NT folks.
I am female, recently diagnosed at the age of 46. To be honest, it just confirmed my suspicions for the last 6 years or so. It was through the NHS. I already have a psychiatrist as I also have schizophrenia and she also does the Autism assessments in our county. She fast tracked me so I only waited a year.
I find that after a couple of hours of talking to and being with NT people I want to poke my own eyes out and start screaming. Does anyone else feel like this? For what it's worth, my partner of 13 years also thinks he is Autistic but is very happy with it and doesn't think there would be anything to gain by persuing a diagnosis.
I really want to connect with fellow Autistic people and make some friends.
Welcome. I hope you can find what you seek here.
Roy said:comments are made about everything, it’s just inane.
Hell yea ! It's like enduring death by a thousand tiny cuts. In isolation, you barely notice the odd few dozen - but after a while..........
BMF said:I want to poke my own eyes out and start screaming.
.....I'm off to visit non-verbal nature for a few hours = probably the only thing (+this place) that keeps me sane these days!
I think you are spot on with that. I was the 'weird' kid at school and then the 'weird' bloke at work lol. Its a role i was born to play. On a serious note though i do think that Autism was not nearly as understood back then. If we werent like Dustin Hoffman in rain man we werent recognised. We were just odd.
Having been diagnosed its given me at least a reason for my difference. Also its given my boss great pleasure as she has been telling me for about 8 years. Now she just laughs when i do something 'autistic' and does the told you so bit. (She is awesome and isnt a bully. We have a LOT of banter. She has ADHD and sees the same shrink as me lol).
Yeah im not convinced i have Bipolar. However i am not the expert so we shall see.
I have a good friend who is NT, although that's debatable because she has bipolar. It sounds like your psychiatrist is on the ball and looking into things for you.
I wonder what's with so many people of our generation being diagnosed. I guess when we were children we were just considered a bit odd or quiet maybe?
Rant away Roy. I feel exactly the same. I used to just get drunk when she stayed until my partner got embarrassed cause she asked if I had a drink problem. I understand what you mean about it being inane. I have to do some serious masking. It takes ages for me to recover too, plus the change in routine is unbearable.
It’s not easy, I had family stay for Christmas, comments are made about everything, it’s just inane. They don’t understand that I have been like this since birth, the sort of,” Try not to think about it,” is just brain numbing. I tend to stay in the kitchen, cook and self medicate. If they aren’t making noise then they aren’t happy. By the end of a stay, I feel empty and abused. It takes ages to recover. Sorry going into rant mode now.
Morning,
I got diagnosed last year at the age of 42. It seems there are many people of our generation getting a late diagnosis. You are in good company!
I have built a small group of NT friends that understand my oddities and are accepting of me. Im quite lucky like that. Sometimes i feel the need to be the centre of attention and other times i just want to observe.
My psychiatrist is currently toying with the idea i may be bipolar. I dont know.
Anyway welcome to the family.
Dogtooth
Yes, my mother in law is relentless with her talking, unsolicited advice, personal remarks and the like. I often have to go upstairs to make 'long phone calls'/ All that masking certainly takes it's toll. I will open a bottle of wine and drink it in bed when they leave.
I think my partner told them of my diagnosis but I doubt they know what it means.
I always have a bolt hole, normally a room where I can escape to. It just gives that bit of rest and release from masking. Do they know of your diagnosis?
Thanks for the replies. NTs doing my bloomin' swede in. I've got my inlaws coming for the weekend tomorrow and staying till Sunday and it's going to completely ruin me!
Yes, fast tracked and only having to wait a year. I was originally told it would be two so not bad going.
Hello and welcome!
I also waited several years from when I suspected to when I managed to ask for a diagnosis. And then even longer on the list. I laugh at how "fast tracked" means you "only" waited a year!
I admit I don't have that experience, but then I don't think I've ever managed 2 hours talking to NTs. They usually walk away before that because I'm too weird. I'm much better with other divergent folks, whether that's autistic or something else "weird" that gives people a difference perspective.
Hi and welcome to the group. Wow you can do two hours with NT’s, I start wanting to poke my eyes out after 20 minutes.!