Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello, I'm Angelina "Angel",
I'm not new to autism but in the last couple of years I've been feeling the pressures of autism, it's been overwhelming and now I feel as if it's strangling me. I'm not sure I explain myself right. I try. There's been a lot of change in the last couple of years, lost my dad, had cancer and I've got severe depression and anxiety disorders which affects me badly at times. I have a little baby girl, I find being a mum hard work and overwhelming. I did have a boyfriend, he was my rock and my support but as soon as I said I was pregnant he ran, haven't seen him since then. My autism and other problems are really bad. I have sensory problems, hate change, can't make friends and I can't work. I'm a loser basically. Because of the autism I don't feel hungry or thirsty, I have frequent hospital admissions for fluids. I've been to the GP and there offering some support but only for the depression and anxiety but I think my main problem is autism related but I can't find the help for it.
Any advice is welcome. I tried calling the national autistic society but my anxiety gets so bad I feel I'll choke. I'm in a bad way and I feel trapped like I can't get out.
You don't sound like a loser! It sounds like you've had to deal with a lot of difficult things. I am also struggling to find practical help for autism.
With the dehydration issue, could you set some kind of alarm to remind you to eat and drink at set times?
Sorry your struggling to find the help as well. It seems non existent doesn't it. I have set alarms before but the trouble is when they go of I don't feel hungry or thirsty so I found they didn't work great for me.