Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi. Slightly scared of being here as I’ve always been someone who can find a solution to everything but getting to the point where I don’t know any more how to deal with my autistic partner’s daily challenges. We are now at a situation where he 24/7 cannot cope with any aspect of everyday life & even the slightest thing can result in hours of physical & verbal aggression. We have virtually no time each week when he is not in a heightened state of anger, annoyance or frustration. We agreed 2 years ago that I would keep working and he could just be at home because work was a massive trigger for him, but for the last 12 months me working has been a further trigger for him. I know that the physical aggression isn’t intentional but has got to the point over recent months that it has caused obvious physical injury & emotional pain. His anger has become worse since he was refused PIP 3 years ago because he is more highly functional than he will give himself credit for. Any support or insight appreciated as I’m getting to point where I genuinely don’t know what to do for the best.
I’m so sorry to hear of your struggles. You clearly love him and have been trying to make it work. It sounds like a very complex and stressful situation and you must be feeling very low. DV is not acceptable, no matter what. Can you find some autism-specific professional help/ psychotherapy - try hard to regulate himself- find strategies to prevent him causing harm when triggered. Is there any chance the decline could be caused by a health problem/ deficiency/ lack of vitD /b12/iron/ magnesium, or an intolerance: gluten/ dairy? My digestive system packed in through stress and dairy and gluten made me very angry ! Sounds strange but even if I eat it now, I get so ratty about two hours later - especially gluten. As you explore avenues of support for both yourself and your husband, I wish you the very best. Take care of of yourself, and find support please.
Sorry to clarify: he to find strategies to prevent himself causing harm. Easier said that done I know. But he must know that he needs to ?