Hello. My name is William and I am 23 years old tomorrow. I have always struggled interacting with others and prefer being by myself. I don't currently have any friends. Back in 2016 I started studying computer science at university. I passed my first year but at the start of second year I stopped going to classes. I felt I didn’t fit in with the other students. I stayed in halls during my time at uni. I would spend most of the time in my room on my own. I wouldn't go to meals and I would always listen to make sure the corridor was empty before leaving my room so I wouldn't have to speak to anyone.
At the start of second year I got a job in a supermarket in the town I studied at. I still have this job. I've worked there 3 and a half years. I like it as I work the same shifts every day and know what tasks need done at what times. I enjoy doing tasks like counting, filling and checking for reduced items but don't really like being on the tills. I usually spend most of my break in the toilet unless I know nobody else is on their break. I still haven't told my work I'm not at uni. I don't really know how to approach this conversation. I don't know how to explain it.
I tried a college course last year in networking. Because of covid this was all online. I struggle talking to people over the phone or Internet and wasn't able to complete the course. I withdrew after a couple of weeks.
I haven't really spoken to my parents about any of this. I told them I'm not at uni because I didn't get good enough grades. I am scared to tell them I didn't go to class. I am bad at knowing how to approch difficult conversations. I don't really have any explanation for what has happened.
I appreciate any help anyone here is able to give.
Thanks,
William