Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello, don't really know how to start this, Ummm....
Ok, so I was diagnosed as being on the spectrum nearly 3 years ago after actually knowing I was "different" from my peers for most of school life and work life, anxiety and depression have followed me around for a long long time I just got extremely good at hiding everything from everyone (or so I thought), I have a nephew who was diagnosed on the spectrum 10years ago so my sister has told me since I went for my diagnosis that she had an inkling I might have been on the spectrum too.
I've worked full-time ever since I left school but have recently been put on furlough because of the lockdown which has taken time to adjust to a new routine of essentially doing not a lot, I work in a physical job which also needs some mental application and not having a lot to do has really affected me mentally, some days I have no drive to get anything done or when I do have something to do I get it done so quickly that I then get frustrated that I didn't pace myself to make the task last longer therefore prolonging the time I'm active and reducing the length of time spent "stuck in my head".
I guess what I'm asking is does anyone have any advice on how to get motivated or how to avoid getting "stuck in my head" as I'm really beginning to struggle and I don't want to have to talk to my go as they are currently so overrun with everything else that's going on.
Sorry for rambling
Hi all thanks for reading and replying, thanks for the suggestions (taking up a hobby/learn a new skill/reading more), Im already am avid reader but struggle with knowing when to stop to the point I can finish books in a day and neglect any form of housework etc which then affects me as I feel I haven't accomplished anything that day as I've been lost in a book so I try to limit the time I spend reading.
I was blessed with exactly 0 musical talent so I'm not sure that's for me, I used to really enjoy drawing but wasn't overly talented at that which would then frustrate me as what I'd drawn didn't come out as I wanted so I put that to bed many moons ago.
I used to play a lot of sport until a few years ago when injuries resulted in me having to give it up which annoyed me as I never finished on my terms, I spent a lot of my youth riding various styles of mountain biking which I started to get back into without exasperating old injuries but that's been stopped obviously due to the lock down and just riding for an hour doesn't really scratch that itch as its more a leisurely ride than going down proper trails or hitting jumps.
I used to do a bit of mountain bike racing in the days when 98% of us were on totally rigid bicycles as suspension front forks were new and cost more then out whole bicycle, and that was a fairly decent bike too. I couldn't afford them, so like many others, we raced using foam grips and learnt to "Read the road"