Hi there!

Okay so it's been a very long time since I've been on message boards of any kind so I apologise if I'm wary or shy. I don't know how to start so I'll just jump right in.

I'm writing a novel (or trying to!) and my main character has autism. I've been doing a lot of research for her and the more information I read, the more things seemed to click that that was how I felt, or it was as though they were talking about me personally. I tried to speak to both my husband and my doctor about this and they both flat out said no. My dr said "everyone is on the scale" and doesn't see hte point in sending me off for testing, while my husband tells me that he's grown up around a few autistic people as a teenager and I'm not like them, so I obviously don't have anything going on with me. This just makes me want to not talk to him about things like my mental health now, which is something I brought up in a huge argument we had today. He sides with the dr, which is so frustrating. I'mnow doubting myself, which is making it worse because I've known all my life there is something different about me, but I've never been able to put it into words. Even now I struggle because I don't want people to look at me and think I'm doing it for attention - it's bad enough they think that with my fibromyalgia and my chronic fatigue syndrome (though not my husband as he is my registered carer).

I didn't know where else to go and I was just looking through the internet when I found this place. Sorry for just blurting everything out, but I'm rubbish at working out how to say things lol.