After a 2 year wait I was recently diagnosed, and it is taking some time to adjust to it, such a mixturte of different feelngs, relief, regret, avoidance, disbelief, but mainly just relief. It wasn't just that I was weird all my life, there was a recogniseable, distinct, pervasive difficulty and there always has been. It wasn't that I didn't try hard enough, it wasn't that I was lazy, or just didn't want to mix with people or do a 'normal' job, but there are other more positive things too...the synaesthesia type experiences I have had, sensitivities to energies, my being drawn to workshops and groups where I could learn to make eye contact, to hug and enjoy physical contact, and many many more things I can now begin to place as to why I did this or why I was interested in that, or why I would have my own version of a meltdown. Thank you to the community for existing and hi to everyone. I look forward to learning and understanding more/
Thanks for the welcome everyone - what a confusing journey it has been and a surprising outcome with this diagnosis, very unexpected, though I did think there was something I couldn't explain. I have had problems for years understanding social interactions and actually doing them, but have learnt to 'pretend', even though I didn't actually realise this was what I was doing.
Was diagnosed at 45 last year, although I've always known
It's confusing at first, even though I have always known.
Your be fine and hopefully won't take long to come to terms, with what you have probably suspected for many years.
Were not less, in many ways we are superior, that's my belief.
All the best