Hi,
Feeling very 'naked' even just discussing how I feel in a forum. I am usually a very outgoing person but my 4 yrs old child has been diagnose with high functioning autism recently and since then I have been going through lots of emotions which I know it is " normal" but it is very hard.
Today I dropped my child to the nursery and heard two kids of the same age saying" oh no, X is here." My heart sunk! Another child came up to me saying my child often hit him and chase him around nursery. I tried to explain to the kid, my child wants to make friends with him and that's why he was chasing him and advised the kid if my child does it next time, then tell my child to be gentle.
I feel so so bad, to the kid, the kid's parents and my child. I was hoping school in sept will be a good start with new kids and teachers but am so worry my child's behaviour would cause other kids to reaction the same way. My child is very happy and loving and always likes to play with others but has difficulty in social situation with kids at times. I feel so useless on a day like this. Desparate to be positive but tears can't stop flowing down my face.
Any one feels or felt the same before?
thank you both for your kind replies. I think the difficulties lie in what my head tells me and what my heart feels. Deep down I haven't accepted the diagnose and am not able to discuss with people I know. ( I have to a couple but not able to talk openly about it)
I have spoken to the school about it and they seem to be very supportive. We haven't got a statement yet, but will start the ball rolling as the docs will write to the school in sept. I was concern that there will be no support for my child as we haven't got a statement and it takes about six month for the process.However the school have told me not to worry and they will see how my child gets on and if additional support is needed, they will sort something out. I know it sound stupid but I keep on thinking things will sort itself out and my child will ' grown out' of it. Even though I know this isn't the case. My partner tells me our child might find it harder than the others but with time and support, there's no reason why things won't work out. As I said before the difficulties lie in what my head thinks and what my heart feels.....
Either way I know I need to focus on the positive and in time I might even be able to speak about it in person. I do feel so much better being able to write about it. Thank you for understanding how I felt.
thank you both for your kind replies. I think the difficulties lie in what my head tells me and what my heart feels. Deep down I haven't accepted the diagnose and am not able to discuss with people I know. ( I have to a couple but not able to talk openly about it)
I have spoken to the school about it and they seem to be very supportive. We haven't got a statement yet, but will start the ball rolling as the docs will write to the school in sept. I was concern that there will be no support for my child as we haven't got a statement and it takes about six month for the process.However the school have told me not to worry and they will see how my child gets on and if additional support is needed, they will sort something out. I know it sound stupid but I keep on thinking things will sort itself out and my child will ' grown out' of it. Even though I know this isn't the case. My partner tells me our child might find it harder than the others but with time and support, there's no reason why things won't work out. As I said before the difficulties lie in what my head thinks and what my heart feels.....
Either way I know I need to focus on the positive and in time I might even be able to speak about it in person. I do feel so much better being able to write about it. Thank you for understanding how I felt.
