aspergers

hiya my name billy bob i recently read a article in a newspaper and some of the things in it sound like me down to a tee. one of my childern is currently being diagonesed with aspergers and the more i look into it it looks like i might have it to but havent been diagonsed as dont know where to start or what to do. i am currently on fluxotine for my depression and anxiety but now wondering if it is actually aspergers i have and would like to hear from anyone that can help. i have very low self esteem and confidence and find it hard to make new friends and speak about my emotions and have a lot of anger due to the fact my mother cutting herself of from me about 8years ago now. she always put my down and said i was no good and i would end up like my uncle a waste of space and when i finally got a girlfriend she didnt like that and threw me out of the house and had to live elsewhere and made our life hell. thought it all changed when we had our 1st child but it last 6months and then all hell broke loose and never spoken to her since.she moved away 8years ago but still hurts today how could you treat your only child like this. i love all my kids more than words can say. just want help to sort out my life. my wife has been like my rock and i want to be me again and not this jekell and hyde person i am at the minute.