Am I still me?

Hey, I hope your day is going ok

I have just been diagnosed with high functioning austism. I am really not sure how I am feeling right now, and I dont know if thats normal. I also have severe meltdowns when I just completely cant cope and I feel so alone with this. I have always been an anxious person, but now I know what it is, does it change the way people think of me? I feel lile people are acting differently around me, and I dont like it. I am pretty good at hiding my autism most of the time, except for when I really cant cope.

There are boys at my school that find autism and disabllities funny, and make jokes and post horrible pictures about it. I thought about asking them to stop, from my previous forum but they just laughed. This is making it harder to come to terms with the fact that I now have the thing they laugh about.  This is making me more anxious than ever.

I feel like in school, I put on a massive act all the time, and im exhausted of it.  I now feel things are now going to be harder now I know what is wrong with me.

Do you have any tips about coping with day-to-day life anxieties? Am I the only one that has meltdowns? How should I deal with people finding out?

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  • Yeah, you are still you. You just know a little more now about yourself.

    School is tough, but it's tough for everybody. Laughing and joking is a bonding and defense mechanism, to help deal with it, so don't take any of that personally and no, you're not the only person that has meltdowns.

    Over time you'll get better at recognising the things that are causing your anxiety and develop approaches and mechanisms that help you manage or avoid them. Some of those will be the same things everybody does to 'fit in' and make their own life, some of them will be specific to mitigating the negative elements of autism.

    Just remember to exploit and enjoy all the positive elements too. There are plenty, not least of which is a level of self-awareness that your peers will lack. You'll rapidly be better at some of stuff because you'll learn how to do it well. Something to look forward to :)

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  • Yeah, you are still you. You just know a little more now about yourself.

    School is tough, but it's tough for everybody. Laughing and joking is a bonding and defense mechanism, to help deal with it, so don't take any of that personally and no, you're not the only person that has meltdowns.

    Over time you'll get better at recognising the things that are causing your anxiety and develop approaches and mechanisms that help you manage or avoid them. Some of those will be the same things everybody does to 'fit in' and make their own life, some of them will be specific to mitigating the negative elements of autism.

    Just remember to exploit and enjoy all the positive elements too. There are plenty, not least of which is a level of self-awareness that your peers will lack. You'll rapidly be better at some of stuff because you'll learn how to do it well. Something to look forward to :)

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