Finding Answers

After months of researching and questioning myself I finally decided to phone and try to arrange a GP appointment to get an assessment for autism. I'm a 20 year old student in my final year at university. For around the past year I've been struggling with depression and I've had anxiety in some form for as long as I can remember. I was told that I couldn't be on the autistic spectrum because I'm at university and I wouldn't be where I was if I was autistic. I don't really understand this and it has made me feel even worse and even more confused. I've been seeing a counceller for my mental health problems and want to bring it up with him but I feel as though I would be wasting his time. I feel lost at the moment and it is seriously affecting my uni work and my relationships with family and friends, who are distancing themselves fro me when I try to talk about the traits of autism I experience. Any help in understanding and coping better would be really apprreciated. I haven't told anyone else I think I am autistic. Should I? Am I just making this up in my head? Do I keep trying to get a diagnosis?

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  • The problem with it is that I now feel as if the problems I have are imagined an that everything that has happened is my fault. I identify with aspergers syndrome or a form of high functioning autism. The thing is I have not found it easy at university and I would put my success down to my obsession with politics and social policy. I have found it very hard communicating with people and would rather sit in a lecture theatre at the back myself than sit with anyone else. Doing any kind of public speaking brings its challenges and I had to do a fifteen minute presentation last year to around thirty people and I struggled to put all of the words together. I've seeked helped from one or two lecturers who I've gotten on well with and I would not have been able to get through any of this without them. I'm really not sure whether I should leave it but I feel as if the mental health problems I have are a direct cause of ASD. I've been very open about the problems I have with family, friends, doctors and councillers but no one so far has been able to help or even identify the problem. I am just rambling on now I think and that's what making this harder for the people around me. I struggle to understand how they feel or why they might not want to talk to me to the point where my best friend has blocked me completely and will not talk to me and my mum has threatened to throw me out on several occasions.

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  • The problem with it is that I now feel as if the problems I have are imagined an that everything that has happened is my fault. I identify with aspergers syndrome or a form of high functioning autism. The thing is I have not found it easy at university and I would put my success down to my obsession with politics and social policy. I have found it very hard communicating with people and would rather sit in a lecture theatre at the back myself than sit with anyone else. Doing any kind of public speaking brings its challenges and I had to do a fifteen minute presentation last year to around thirty people and I struggled to put all of the words together. I've seeked helped from one or two lecturers who I've gotten on well with and I would not have been able to get through any of this without them. I'm really not sure whether I should leave it but I feel as if the mental health problems I have are a direct cause of ASD. I've been very open about the problems I have with family, friends, doctors and councillers but no one so far has been able to help or even identify the problem. I am just rambling on now I think and that's what making this harder for the people around me. I struggle to understand how they feel or why they might not want to talk to me to the point where my best friend has blocked me completely and will not talk to me and my mum has threatened to throw me out on several occasions.

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