Hello
I've been having blackouts since late 2008. I'm 35 now & have seen GPs about this many times since. Though I don't show my injuries, as I prefer to cover them up with make up/clothes. It's easier than being asked how it happened & having to say I don't know.
GP used to say that I needed to have a brain scan to rule out other problems. However due to ASD issues I've never been able to have a scan.
GPs record that my symptoms seem to fit with panic attacks/ anxiety. But they only did this after the Local Authority stopped trying to get a court order to remove my child. Which falsely allowed the LA to claim during court that my health could be worse.
I was made via court to attend a public talking therapy course. And later one-to-one sessions, these were over one & half years ago. Which itself I found traumatic. But this didn't help the specific issues though nor did it make the specific issues worse.
I'm sick of dropping things & missing what's going on. Or worse, myself dropping if I ignore weird warning signalls my body gives me. And my own mother claiming I just can't be bothered to pay attention, remember etc. And of claims that I can do things if I want to. I hate having to rush to the toilet for privacy when I feel the weird feeling I now know so well. Or worse if out having to rush into bushes to lay down out of public view.
I have accepted that it's anxiety/panic attacks. But what I don't get is why I've not been given any support. I don't know what to do.
