Why Get Diagnosed?

Drat and balls. I wrote a long reply and then it told me I wasn't logged in and lost it. -_- 

In short, I was saying that I think the agoraphobia is more to do with the combination of nausea and phobia about that, than fear of people per-se- I do worry that they'll be mean to me if they see me throwing up, and because moving around too much / travelling generally increases my nausea and pain and I don't LIKE throwing up, so I'm highly motivated to avoid anything that makes it more likely. I think the only sort-of autistic thing in there is that I cannot get over the assumption that other people will react with the same abject horror that I do to seeing someone vomiting, even though I know academically that 90% of people just aren't that bothered, I can't understand it. 

On persuing it more aggressively / legal rights etc, I'm not in the same position as people who just have bad GPs at all, mine is lovely, and the problem is I don't WANT to fight her or go over her head- and I'm not even sure she's wrong- she has to think of everyone, after all, and allocate resources and funding to those most in need, whereas I only have to think of me and what I want / need. I think the problem is.. I find it weird to think that I wouldn't benefit from diagnosis- that it just isn't important. I feel like I'm missing something, but until I know exactly what it is, and I can go to her and say "I need diagnosis because X" I don't even feel I have a very strong case. 

Re persuing it though the mental health people- as far as I understand, the assessors are now done with me- I won't see them again, and I'll have no contact until whoever is going to do CBT to me gets in touch- long waiting list. I've already been on it quite a few months. I'll probably mention it to them when I meet them, anyway- just to see if they see any of the traits in me- it'd be really interesting. Boyfriend does- in fact he's the one who keeps pushing it- I came accross aspergers ages ago and thought oh, that sounds a lot like me, but I'm coping so who cares? And forgot about it, but boyfriend recently discovered it, and he says it'd explain a lot, and make it easier to be patient etc with my slightly less.. charming traits! Then again, that could be bad- I do think people should be berated for bad behaviour, even if there is a reason for it. I don't want an excuse to be a brat... but I do rather hate it when he gets angry at me for being unreasonable and I'm TRYING but I'm just so irritatingly illogically fixated. It bothers ME so I understand totally why it's annoying for him. That would be a good place for the patience card. Ahhh rambling. Erm.. what else? Oh, just that I'd really like other peoples' opinion on whether I sound like a good match for it. Hopefully I can at least get a bit of that here. 

Drat and balls. I wrote a long reply and then it told me I wasn't logged in and lost it. -_- 

In short, I was saying that I think the agoraphobia is more to do with the combination of nausea and phobia about that, than fear of people per-se- I do worry that they'll be mean to me if they see me throwing up, and because moving around too much / travelling generally increases my nausea and pain and I don't LIKE throwing up, so I'm highly motivated to avoid anything that makes it more likely. I think the only sort-of autistic thing in there is that I cannot get over the assumption that other people will react with the same abject horror that I do to seeing someone vomiting, even though I know academically that 90% of people just aren't that bothered, I can't understand it. 

On persuing it more aggressively / legal rights etc, I'm not in the same position as people who just have bad GPs at all, mine is lovely, and the problem is I don't WANT to fight her or go over her head- and I'm not even sure she's wrong- she has to think of everyone, after all, and allocate resources and funding to those most in need, whereas I only have to think of me and what I want / need. I think the problem is.. I find it weird to think that I wouldn't benefit from diagnosis- that it just isn't important. I feel like I'm missing something, but until I know exactly what it is, and I can go to her and say "I need diagnosis because X" I don't even feel I have a very strong case. 

Re persuing it though the mental health people- as far as I understand, the assessors are now done with me- I won't see them again, and I'll have no contact until whoever is going to do CBT to me gets in touch- long waiting list. I've already been on it quite a few months. I'll probably mention it to them when I meet them, anyway- just to see if they see any of the traits in me- it'd be really interesting. Boyfriend does- in fact he's the one who keeps pushing it- I came accross aspergers ages ago and thought oh, that sounds a lot like me, but I'm coping so who cares? And forgot about it, but boyfriend recently discovered it, and he says it'd explain a lot, and make it easier to be patient etc with my slightly less.. charming traits! Then again, that could be bad- I do think people should be berated for bad behaviour, even if there is a reason for it. I don't want an excuse to be a brat... but I do rather hate it when he gets angry at me for being unreasonable and I'm TRYING but I'm just so irritatingly illogically fixated. It bothers ME so I understand totally why it's annoying for him. That would be a good place for the patience card. Ahhh rambling. Erm.. what else? Oh, just that I'd really like other peoples' opinion on whether I sound like a good match for it. Hopefully I can at least get a bit of that here.