what do i have ?

i think your probelm is, that while you got some symptoms, those alone in itself is not enough to give a full diagnosis. Autism has alot of symptoms overlapping with lots of other conditions and even perfectly healthy people without any cnditions can develope many of the symptoms in the wrong type of envoironment. (whilist everything you said often comes with aspergers, only one actually having any reference to aspergers of what you listed if difficulties making friends, but that can also be due to something entirely different. being lonely, sad, worrying, struggling to move on from difficut situations could be anything and neither even mean its neccesarily an condition because most people at one point of antoher feel those things and some people jsut have it harder processing stuff, which doesnt mean they need to be diagnsoed with something cuz of it) I too, when first mentioning social difficulties, was pointed to a leaflet of something completely else that had the pretty much all the sympotoms of social difficulties(communicating effectively, making friends dealing with group situations, social awkwardness etc), but as i had the full blown symptoms including all the other aspects of aspergers aswell, including intense obsessions, rigidity to routines, unable to cope with change, sensory difficulties, it couldnt explain the rest by it, thus leading to this diagnosis instead.

i think your probelm is, that while you got some symptoms, those alone in itself is not enough to give a full diagnosis. Autism has alot of symptoms overlapping with lots of other conditions and even perfectly healthy people without any cnditions can develope many of the symptoms in the wrong type of envoironment. (whilist everything you said often comes with aspergers, only one actually having any reference to aspergers of what you listed if difficulties making friends, but that can also be due to something entirely different. being lonely, sad, worrying, struggling to move on from difficut situations could be anything and neither even mean its neccesarily an condition because most people at one point of antoher feel those things and some people jsut have it harder processing stuff, which doesnt mean they need to be diagnsoed with something cuz of it) I too, when first mentioning social difficulties, was pointed to a leaflet of something completely else that had the pretty much all the sympotoms of social difficulties(communicating effectively, making friends dealing with group situations, social awkwardness etc), but as i had the full blown symptoms including all the other aspects of aspergers aswell, including intense obsessions, rigidity to routines, unable to cope with change, sensory difficulties, it couldnt explain the rest by it, thus leading to this diagnosis instead.