I've already introduced myself in the introduction part of the forum so I don't feel like I need to say my name or anything so I'll just explain what's wrong with me, I have been suffering from sort of depression since late October - early November following the loss of my grandfather to MND (Motor Neurone Disease) and Pneumonia, I wasn't able to the work that was set for me to do by my college (West Cheshire College) due to not being able to have the drive to do it due to constant low moods, I couldn't undestand at the time why I had the constant low moods but I now do know why I had the low moods (grief), I tried to hide the fact that I couldn't do the work and I would have days were I would constantly do nothing in college, after that in January I would have constant thoughts about death and what would happen after death and thoughts similar to the one's described by Draco Multus here: community.autism.org.uk/.../possible-health-problems-autism-please-try-not-read-if- , One day in Late January or early February (I have a bad memory) I broke down and told my mum about what I had been feeling and I moved down the stairs instead of being locked in my room all the time as the thoughts would take over my mind when I was up there, the thoughts continued to slip in to my mind though when I would sit there and then one day when I went into college I started to freak out and I had a panic attack and I had to go home from college as I was just so tired and freaked out, my mum and I decided that I should go to the doctors and tell them about my thoughts and things at the time I thought I had General Anxiety Disorder and told my tutors that I thought I had it and they suggested I go to see a counsellor which I now am, now the panic attacks have turned into exhaustion and I've been having trouble dealing with time and things like that, I already had enough trouble with writing and learning now I'm having trouble even telling the time some times, I'm sorry If I rambled.