I'll add to this as well. I am just in the process of getting diagnosis started, although I am fairly sure I am aspergic.
Your post sounds similar to mine, although you have a few more extreme points there (not meant offensively).
I completely understand when you say the more you look into it, the more you feel you might be making things up. The more I have read the more I think "my god that sounds just like me" or "aha! that would explain why X keeps happening". But then the rational side of me thinks "you're just being stupid, or lazy. Everyone feels like that and they just don't talk about it".
Although I agree a diagnosis would be great because it would stop those negative thoughts and would allow me and maybe yourself to accept who you are and why, but there is always the risk I suppose, that if you get told there's nothing wrong with you, that it might be hard to accept. I know it would be for me. But after what feels like years and years of anguish, it is worth the risk.
I'll add to this as well. I am just in the process of getting diagnosis started, although I am fairly sure I am aspergic.
Your post sounds similar to mine, although you have a few more extreme points there (not meant offensively).
I completely understand when you say the more you look into it, the more you feel you might be making things up. The more I have read the more I think "my god that sounds just like me" or "aha! that would explain why X keeps happening". But then the rational side of me thinks "you're just being stupid, or lazy. Everyone feels like that and they just don't talk about it".
Although I agree a diagnosis would be great because it would stop those negative thoughts and would allow me and maybe yourself to accept who you are and why, but there is always the risk I suppose, that if you get told there's nothing wrong with you, that it might be hard to accept. I know it would be for me. But after what feels like years and years of anguish, it is worth the risk.
