So.... I am a Gay guy.... and i dont feel bad about it im actually Kinda Proude of it, but i also feel some what un easy of it as well as it Stresses me out and makes me feel if my Decisions have been a good choice for me, Its a very weird feeling when i look at couples and always think to Myself "why dont i have anything like that" and it puts me in a very Unstable Position. Its just the feeling of like my thoughts and feelings i get when i look at some of the people in work or just out walking around, it makes me feel like i cant or will never find anyone due to how i am mentally as i have a lot of things wrong with me mentally.
I have savior depression and savior Anxiety, plus Very bad social anxiety Were i find it super Difficult to even talk to a random stranger and have a full conversation with them unless they come up to me and Continue to Push the conversation along, (this aint including The Potential Of me having OCD or ADHD and or Autism) It gets to me every time because i then feel like i cant make any friends as much as find someone to potentially call mine in the future.
Sorry for rambling on and on as i kinda hate Doing it as i always have the feeling of People actually don't care about the problems you have cus as much as i have bad mental health and all that a lot of others have it a lot worse than me but it kinda puts me in the sad mood of like feeling Lost or feeling Forgotten as its just the constant remainder of like "People do care"
but yeah just asking as I'm actually in a okay mood rn.... might change later as i think of what i said... but hope not. anyways thanks for Listening and or commenting on this with advice as it really really does mean a heck of a lot.