I’m sure this has been spoken about more than once but I’m suffering badly at the moment. My mother died from cancer just over three years ago and it was traumatic to witness. Not just her quick decline but the emotions and feelings that went with finding out the bad news it had returned again. It’s a huge burden to carry around these memories and seeing my sisters heart break beyond repair was just horrific. I am scared I’ll get the same awful disease but more scared of how others will react and cope themselves. I know I’m catastrophic thinking but it’s very easy for me to convince myself of something bad approaching. I’ve got a test tomorrow and I dread tests, as much as I would like to know if something is wrong I’d also like to burry my head in the sand. Last time I had a blood test I was looking at the nurses face looking for some sort of signal or sign that she knew something was wrong. And now I don’t even want to be in the same room when they do the test! It’s extremely anxiety provoking and out of my routine so it’s even more stressful. Any advice on how you may cope with this would be helpful, I also just needed to get my thoughts out, thanks
