Tomorrow is my appointment with the doctor to discuss about me finally getting a diagnosis. I was told just over 3 years ago that there was a 99.99% chance I was on the autism spectrum (can't legally say 100% without an official diagnosis) but because there were no facilities to be diagnosed they didn't see the point in putting me through with it (I lived in Inverness, Scotland, at the time), and also with being an adult they said even if I were to get diagnosed there wouldn't be anything in the form of support for me so again, it was a pointless waste of time. There has been times in my life where I've struggled with particular things, and to be able to say 'it's because I'm on the autim spectrum', it's been easier to explain to people why it is I do the things I do, which helps me to feel more comfortable.
Management at my work have been supportive and helping me with special requests at work, like, wearing ear defenders/head phones when I need to block out noise around me when it gets too much (we're not allowed to wear headphones at work in case the phone needs answered), or letting me go for short breaks if I feel uncomfortable, etc, but, in a way I feel like I'm lying to them, even though I'm not, because I don't have that official diagnosis on my records. I live 100 miles from Inverness now but there is still similar problems with autism support here so I'm hoping I will get somewhere. Doctors keep putting me on all sorts of medication when all that will help me is some more CBT and some quie time away from people and crowds.
I'm going to keep track of my progress on here because it will spur me on to keep going with it. I've mentioned I've wanted a diagnosis so many times and been shot down so much I don't want to stand for it any more. I'm going to do whateverit takes to get me, and others on the spectrum, the diagnosis and support they need in my local area.
