I am 16 years old, in 11th grade and have autism. No one except me and my parents know I have autism as I do not want anyone to look different on me and many people at my school use autism as a curse word.
Now, at my school, I am put in some special regard for some reason. Everyone, from the 5th graders to the 12th graders knows me, my name and literally everything about me.
That may also be due to the fact that I do multiple activities in my school that help other students and therefore come in contact with people from all kinds of different ages, people from younger ages, my age and older people, for example a tutor and instructor for young kids.
Now, the thing is, usually I love my job. I have interests that partially align with the younger kids as many of my classmates are too “teenlike” to me; but in general; I am sometimes overwhelmed when in break or in my free time.
sometimes, I just need a few minutes alone for me when I’m in school. This is often not possible. Every thirty seconds, someone daps me up, asks or tells me something, wants to talk to me.
usually, it is a nice feeling, but then there are times where I just want to be alone.
how can I do that?
one of the 5th graders now somehow got my number and is texting me all the time during vacation.
i also got in an argument with a mother of a kid because he handed me a 20£ App Store gift card for no reason.
I usually love this job and being at school, but sometimes it’s just too much. But I can’t say no well as I always worry about losing friends and people not liking me. How can I do that?
this applies to lots of different situation like other people asking me to buy them stuff or copying off of me; I just can’t say no.
in a structured debate, I love to debate with people. If I have arguments and they have arguments. But they do not have arguments, they just say stuff that makes no sense; and this makes it impossible for me to say no.
I’m sorry for this post being too long, I hope someone can help me.
