I've been so stupid. I just need to tell it

So firstly I don't want sympathy or kind words. I'm not fishing. I just need to get this in the open so it's not bottled up. 

I'm alone this weekend for the first time in a while. I've managed to properly screw it all up. 

Firstly I upset my boss yesterday and I didn't need to. I was thoughtless and now she isn't replying to me. She is one of my best friends. I should have put her first. 

Then the anxiety kicked in. I'm not gonna give details but I made the worst decision ever. I spent all night taking narcotics. I haven't slept at all. 

I'm now drinking red wine feeling like a total tool. Why do I keep going round this track. 

The definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over expecting a different result. 

OK. Thats me done. I've told it. At least I've told it. 

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  • Hey Dogtooth, 

    Once you put down the wine and the drugs and get some sleep, you'll manage to get a whole lot more perspective on the situation and things will start to feel better. 

    Remember, you're going to feel rough for a day or two after all this, but that feeling will go eventually. 

    Go rest up and let us know how you're doing later. x

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  • Hey Dogtooth, 

    Once you put down the wine and the drugs and get some sleep, you'll manage to get a whole lot more perspective on the situation and things will start to feel better. 

    Remember, you're going to feel rough for a day or two after all this, but that feeling will go eventually. 

    Go rest up and let us know how you're doing later. x

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