Hi,
I am 30 years old and have an ASD, which was only diagnosed in the last year, following years of treatment for major depression and anxiety problems, and just being classed as wierd.
I currently take .5-1mg of risperidone per day, 15-30mg of mirtazapine per day, and around 14 x 1mg lorazepam per month (although I could take a lot more of this if it wasn't so addictive!).
The problem I am having is that I am beginning to feel very depressed again, my agriphobic habits are getting stronger, I can barely stand talking with or seeing anyone, I can't sleep, I dont eat well, and I genuinely wish I didn't wake up everyday.
I don't think I can continue living much longer, and I have not found psychotherapy or diagnosis any help towards coping with the way I am. The medication helps a little, but at the doses I feel a real difference with, I feel sick and highly sedated.
Does anyone have any advice on different meds that may help? I can't take most ssri/snri as they make me go crazy. I have tried seroquel, but took an overdose of it, iv tried tricyclics (amatritaline), betablockas, the list is long....
I know meds are never going to cure me, but I can't live on my own chemistry, or I'd kill myself, although I'm getting to that stage now with the meds I'm on.
Any advice would be most appreciated :)