Cleanliness bothers me. It’s a huge obsession of mine, a mix from the autism, anxiety and OCD. Specifically the OCD I think. It’s why I don’t sit down in a shop or cafe, or on a bench, or in someone else’s house. I’m always anxious that it hasn’t been cleaned properly and isn’t sanitary. At home I’m cleaning all the time. Dust every day. Hoover every day. Clean every day. The idea of dirt and dust and grime is overwhelming to me. Luckily my home isn’t massive, but it is a 5 bedroom house, so it’s a mornings work of cleaning for me. I’m happy to do it though. I like a clean house. Hand washing is one of my biggest struggles. I’m washing my hands all the time! I counted at least 40 times in less than half an hour on one day. My hands always feel dirty and look dirty so I wash them and then scrub them with a flannel, which can be very uncomfortable for me.
Do you think this is an autism thing or is it just me being weird?
