I've got a hospital appt and test coming up and I'm terrified. I noticed a lump and my GP has referred me and I've got to have a mammogram as well as other tests and I'm already panicking (a in case it's cancer and (b because I suffer terrible from health phobia and try to avoid hospitals and doctors as much as possible. In those sorts of places I have anxiety attacks and meltdowns multiple times and it's very distressing for me and embarrassing because there's usually other people around who stare when it happens.
I don't really want to go to this appt but I know it's potentially life threateningly serious for me if it does turn out to be cancer.
My BF is so supportive.
He's been comforting me and says he'll go with me but I'm still terrified right now.
