I'm due it.its been 12 weeks since first but I am too scared to have it.
I felt maybe a bit tired after the first but I was so anxious I refused to eat for three days in case it made me vomit. I Also had diarea, which isn't uncommon for me
But I was truly terrified.
Now I don't want the second dose because I have heard it can give very bad side effects.
I have zero support. I need to be able to drive and get out of my small house because I become quickly claustrophobic. And if I get bad side effects they may stop me from driving.. then I will be stuck in my prison and end up self harming my body, because I consider it my enemy, it's stopped me doing so much, and put me in so many bad situations, so I think the body might develop side effects just to punish me and trap me. When I feel the urge to self harm I always get in the car and drive away.. it's my way of coping.
I've spoken to both GP and mental health and they aren't interested at all
I have two dogs who need me to drive them to the park as well
I've spent an entire year petrified of covid. I avoid people and indoor spaces .but I don't want the vaccine to make me ill either.
I'm 48, female, autistic and have PTSD, anxiety, depression but no co morbidities.. is my risk really be that great if I.leave second dose for now? Id consider having another one next spring, a year after my first.. Just worries about side effects..even though every body I've spoken to has had no side effects, They don't have my nasty body or my lack of support network..
Please can anyone advise or even comment on their experience?
