when i first admitted to myself i am autistic ,it totally knocked me for six [i don't like this phrase but can't think of how to describe it.] everything i thought about that had happened to me had changed, the reasons i reacted were different and the fact that half the people around me are autistic changed why they had done stuff to me .so everything has changed . Reading about things like Alexithymia and ptsd have changed the way that i look at both myself and events that have happened to me.
I have always known i am different ,and when asked about my children have always said i don't know what normal is ,The way i have always looked at it is people are all different ,some good some bad ,its all a bit blurry really .
What do you do if you don't feel anything ,just go along and do what you think you should ,try to do the right thing .
The point is putting labels on things ,is it good ? ,it's changed the way i think about the past and myself , but it's made me realize how little i now about what is going on around me and how wrong i am when trying to guess .I suppose like a blind person trying to describe a picture .
