Can anyone else identify with the long-term problems I experience and if so, how do you cope?
- not having any friends/having given up on finding a partner
- 'existing' but never 'living' -work is the only surviving mechanism I know (volunteering would interest me but I don't have time presently due to other commitments)
- 'just about' managing to hold down a job for decades (a career I 'fell into' rather than one I chose because I was never in a fit state to think of attending uni ), not having the confidence to change job even if I wanted to because of the stress of having my difficulties in adjusting to new things under scrutiny
- confidence destroying struggles with coping with verbal instruction (e.g. inability to keep from bursting into tears right through school to A levels when a teacher tried to explain something because the only way I can learn is from reading, despite being regarded as an academic student)
- slow reactions making driving difficult/something to be avoided as far as possible
- difficulty in remaining calm which makes day to day life stressful
- a life-long desire to carry on studying various subjects but due to depression & low self-confidence/failing to tackle learning programming successfully, not feeling strong enough to try again
- over-emotional and easily triggered
Given up on GP practice as they dismissed without knowing the first thing about me my suggestion that I might be autistic and are only interested in dispensing pills which I don't wish to try. Have tried counselling a few times and CBT once and will not be going there again....
Sorry for ranting on...
