My name isn't really important but it's Rebecca in case you want to know. I have Aspergers Syndrome and was diagnosed early on when I was a young child. Growing up I've always been a bit messed up which I thought was Aspergers at first but later on I was diagnosed as Psychotic as well as having depression and ptsd. I have no friends mostly because I don't trust anybody, people creep me out and I feel like they all have it out for me so I come off as cold and bitchy. Which to be fair I am a bit but no one understand the way I am and the things I do. Even my parents don't like me, hurtful that my mother doesnt but not really bothered about my father cause he's a monster and I dream of his demise every day. I also hurt myself a lot, half because of the depression but also cause I love the pain. I love pain, not sure if that's the Aspergers or my Psychotic side. My doctor has me on a waiting list to see a therapist which probably won't help. I need people who can understand me so I thought I'd try here because we're all wearing the same shoes here. So any help with all this would be welcomed. Thanks guys.
