Background knowledge: I am in the process of being diagnosed with ASD and ADD. I also have gender dysphoria. I am concerned that I may also have OSDD 1-b, and therefore multiple personalities.
Here is what I know:
- I feel multiple "mental presences" that "push up" against mine and alter my thoughts and emotions.
- My mental presences feel like they have different genders, ages, beliefs, and emotions.
- My mental presences' thoughts and emotions feel like they are coming from outside my self, but from inside my brain.
- Most of the time, I do not feel like a singular person, I feel like a blurry mix of people with a shifting gender identity.
- When I do have moments of clarity where I feel singular, I am male.
- I do not act drastically different in different situations or around different people.
- I have very little amnesia- I have never woken up in a strange situation not knowing how I got there.
- I have no physical evidence of these presences taking over my body.
- I do not hear voices.
- I have not yet had a successful communication with these presences.
- I do not have psychosis, schizophrenia, or BPD.
If you have ASD and identity confusion and know how to help, please do! If you have an idea of what this is, please share it! If you know how to make it go away, please tell me! Thank you!
(Also, I am an older teen if that helps.)
