Good morning everyone. I've been struggling a lot with ASD for what feels like ever and I'm getting strange things happen now and wanted to check here to see if I'm the only one who gets them.
Unusual attachment- I've got an unusual attachment to certain things. One is my grandfather's car. My gran said the car was magical and could hear us and make anything right and take me away to better places. Ever since then I've been so attached to the car that I spend all my free time sat inside wishing I could get away from the horrors of life.
Voice- For the last year I've had what I initially believed was an imaginary friend but I now think she's just a voice inside my head. She speaks to me; especially if I'm lonely or feeling the effects of anxiety. A few weeks ago I was being terrorized as usual by another girl and she shoved me and laughed at personal struggles my family has and I felt myself get angry and the voice said teach her a lesson and for a few seconds my eyes were settled on a knife on the table and I actually thought I was going to use it and attack her. And then last night I was feeling sad and so depressed and wanted to go anywhere but this place and in my head she said take the car. Next thing I knew I was sat in my grandfather's car gripping the steering wheel tightly, no key so I didn't go but I stayed in there holding the wheel until the sun rose.
Social repellent- Sometimes I imagine I must look weird or my perfume is a repellent because whenever I go out everyone gives me a strange look and avoids me. It's like there's a weird smell about me so everyone stares and avoids me. I find it hurtful and lonely. I don't know it it's an asd thing or just me overreacting.
And that's it. Does anybody else struggle with the above?
