Hello im new on here and would like some advice on what to do, although im not sure if this is the right place. I havent spoke to my gp about alot of this yet but im trying to get the courage to as i feel it would benefit me knowing and understanding myself better, i hadnt put too much thought into it before now as even though these things affect me everyday ive tried to block it all out maybe even be in denial a bit.
My reason for looking into it more is that my childs health visitor mentioning autism due to his development.
Since then i have been thinking about my difficulties in childhood and now as an adult.
Since a young age i had alot of problems at school and home, As far as i was told a paediatric psychologist said i may have had PTSD this was when i was 6/7.then as time went on i was disruptive, agressive, violent, hyperactive, concentration problems and other things.
Eventually this led to me having SEN Assesments and had a statement of SEN Needs (the only thing i remember is it saying i had BESD) due to this i had to go to a non mainstream school as other schools not having the facilities to meet my needs and due to my violent behaviour, after a few years they eased me back into a mainstream school 2 days a week until eventually full time.I had a psychiatrist since the age of aound 11 due to my depression and other things which they belived to be OCD.
In secondary school i had difficulties attending ontop of the other things my behaviour was less violent but i was bullied for a long time in the end we moved area and changed to another secondary school, where i still had dificulties attending, attention, timekeeping (due to the depression), etc which in my last year of school i had a work placement for 2 days doing something i really enjoyed a week to help me prepare myself for work and to try to help my social difficulties and confidence but after a few months due to being late alot i could no longer work there,then i was only at school for the minimum hours legally required and ended up with bad gcse results for the few i attended as my depression was really bad.
I went to college and ended up dropping out due to my depression and not being able to cope with it. After a few months i got a job but couldnt cope as i had developed anxiety problems.
I have had alot of different OCD behaviours, light switches, coughing,sniffing,breathing, blinking, licking lip, hand washing, skin picking (especially my face)
I feel i cant put my thoughts into words alot of the time especially my feelings
I have always been a good at spelling and reading was above average for my age but i had difficulties with maths and handwriting has always been sloppy
I am not good in social situations, i have never been good with conversations i always feel awkward
I guess im just after some advice as i have never really spoken to anyone about it all before and ive always felt something isnt right with me but i dont know what it is or how to go about finding out.
sorry for the long post
Looking forward to replies
Thanks
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