For a few months now I've been on medication and it seems to be making my mental health decline. To the point where I'm having suicidal thoughts.
Earlier in the year I was diagnosed with Polycystic ovary syndrome, which explained why I'd put on so much weight and why my face was so damn spotty and hairy!! I've been on the pill to help manage the symptoms and for the most part, it's really helped!
I've lost so much weight, m skin has cleared up and I don't feel like a gorilla anymore. I just feel so much healthier generally too. Not to mention, it's reduced the amount of headaches and migraines I have drastically. This is a big deal as I used to suffer with them all the time.
Of course the downside is that it's making me very depressed. I get upset a lot and my thoughts can turn dark very quickly. At work I had a meltdown because of these feelings and now I'm struggling with these feelings again. I'm worried something will happen.
To me, the best course of action is to have my ovaries removed entirely. I feel I am more at risk continuing being on this medication for my polycystic ovaries. And because of all the real good things it's doing for me, I don't want to go off them.
Besides, I don't want children. It looks like a miserable nightmare and something I could just not do. And if I change my mind? Adoption, yo.
But I think they will be reluctant to do that. Apparently they only do that if they're cancerous or something? Maybe I'm wrong about the whole thing and there are better alternatives but that is what I want to do.
As my sister put it: "Most of your problems would be solved if you had your ovaries removed!"
