Hi I'm 26 & I was diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum a few years ago now.
I have isolated myself since adolescence & have suffered from deppression, anxiety, self harm & have attempted suicide.
Recently I have been trying to reach out & rejoin the world (with mixed results), I started attending group therapy, did some volunteering, joined a gym etc.
But I am dogged by loneliness & struggle to make meaningful connections.
Everyday all I do is distract myself from feelings of intense sorrow & I am so tired of the constant fight to just stay afloat.
I feel more like a ghost than an actual living person, people are so selfish & the world so shallow.
I don't know how to find like minded people but I know I can't go on like this.
Any advice you might have would be greatly appreciated.
I’m 18 and have had times when I’ve felt similar to you, still uptight that I feel very few people (that I do know only through social media) want to even have a quick chat through a keyboard. It doesn’t help to isolate yourself, but I did this since I was 13/14 because I had nothing else to do then, and in the long run it made me feel worse.
Try looking fit or creating events online and looking for a group for activities and similar interests. It’s the best advice I could give, good idea to focus on improving your mental state, meditation techniques helped me out before sleeping at night. Hope I’ve helped