Hi
I am 37 and have suffered from depression and anxiety since childhood. The problem is I have always thought something else was wrong. I was clinically diagnosed with depression about 8 years ago by a psychiatrist but found it very difficult seeing him and after a few times didn’t bother going again.
Since then I haven’t worked and have tried 6 different anti depressants to no affect. About a month and a half ago I suffered a total breakdown. I have been seeing a new psychiatrist, the community mental health team and a community mental health care worker. I have had ECT but had to stop after 5 goes because the side effects were too bad and whenever I woke up from the anesthetic I was going a bit Looney with all the staff. Also the psychiatrist said if it hadn’t started working by the 3rd time it wasn’t going to work. I have also had my anti depressants changed again and been put on Quetiapine.
Anyway I now know that I have been diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety and a possibility of borderline personality disorder but with a greater probability of Asperger’s!!!!
The psychiatrist asked did I want to be referred for a test to see if I did have Asperger’s. I said I had no idea, as I only vaguely knew what it was. He thought the best idea would be to talk to my mum and see what she said.
Now this is where the trouble started. Mum came with sister and told a total pack of lies basically!!! So then he said that he didn’t think it was Asperger’s after what they had told him. My sister is a mental health nurse and has convinced my mum that I don’t want to be diagnosed with Asperger’s because of funding issues???
Since then I have done several of the on line tests and they all come out the same that I probably am aspergic.
So if I write down what I was like as a child can anyone more knowledgeable than me say if they think I have Asperger’s because since then I have been doing nothing but read about it and I would say I’m 99% convinced that is what I have.
Anyway if you have got this far thanks for taking the time to read this.