TW - ASD and suicide prevention

ncrbrts said:

I just want someone to understand that I don't want to be autistic any more

I suspect a great many of us can relate to that. I know I can.

My pre-assessment meeting made me feel like I wanted them to give me a lethal injection, though I don't suppose they ever would.

Can I ask if you work or volunteer somewhere?

I have 3 jobs. Between them I can't make ends meet. I'm facing bankruptcy and pressure from the job centre to find something full time. 

Would bankruptcy be unbearable? 

https://www.gov.uk/government/uploads/system/uploads/attachment_data/file/655164/Insolvency_Statistics_-_Q3_2017_web.pdf (page 4) suggests there were over 25,000 people declared bankrupt in the third quarter of last year alone. Therefore, though obviously an awful thing to have to go through, it need not mean the end of everything?

Have you had any contact with the wellbeing team at the district council for your area?
If you go to their website and search for "wellbeing" or "mental health", something should come up.

What did the job centre say when you told them how you feel?

What sorts of jobs are they? Manual work? Something staring at a screen? Something outside?

Do you do anything nice in any free time that you have?

ncrbrts said:

I avoid my colleagues because I find people very difficult

In what way do you find people difficult? Do you find the folk on this forum difficult, for instance (don't worry, I shan't be offended...)

Do you think your tendency to avoid colleagues might come across somehow to NTs during your interviews?

He would go to live with his other parent who happens to be more financially and emotionally secure than I am. It would be better for him. 

I avoid my colleagues because I find people very difficult. 

Why might you have been told you're not enthusiastic enough? If that's something you've heard repeatedly, are there any common themes?

Youve said you're already doing the job, but on the other hand you've also said you want to avoid your colleagues... why is that?

If you followed through with your plans, what would happen to the young child you are supporting?

Why might you have been told you're not enthusiastic enough? If that's something you've heard repeatedly, are there any common themes?

Youve said you're already doing the job, but on the other hand you've also said you want to avoid your colleagues... why is that?

If you followed through with your plans, what would happen to the young child you are supporting?

ncrbrts said:

I avoid my colleagues because I find people very difficult

In what way do you find people difficult? Do you find the folk on this forum difficult, for instance (don't worry, I shan't be offended...)

Do you think your tendency to avoid colleagues might come across somehow to NTs during your interviews?

He would go to live with his other parent who happens to be more financially and emotionally secure than I am. It would be better for him. 

I avoid my colleagues because I find people very difficult.