ermm... well I'm pretty sure I'm autistic (probably Aspergers) but now I don't know what to do about it.
It's never really been something that's come up... ever. All my personality 'faults' have always been blamed on a multitude of things, think like I'm arrogant and antisocial like my dad, or I was a very sensitive child, I've always been sensitive to textures and touch because of my eczema/dry skin and allergies, and more recently depression and anxiety. It's always been a lot of noise but I never felt like any of it quite fit... like how could I have all these things wrong with me yet still have more things wrong with me that can't be explained?!
... until recently, I was watching something about autism on tv and I realised they were literally just describing me and every aspect of who I am! At first it was confusing, being that autism was never something that came up it was just more of a crazy coincidence. But then I did some research around it, and realised that it really does describe everything I am as a person.... and honestly it was a relief, all the mess was gone and all the missing pieces filled. Finally.
The only thing is, now I don't really know what to do with this information. I definitely feel like getting it out there would be a good thing, and beneficial in the long run with me having just finished my A-levels and now starting college to do animal care at the same level as I wasn't ready for uni. But I don't really know how to go about it because, don't get me wrong my mum is amazing, but she's the kind of person that would laugh it off and not take me seriously, and I know a lot of other people around me would be the same I mean I've gone this long without any kind of diagnosis so it can't be real... or something like that would be the most likely response as that's the way things have always been.
Just figured this would be a good place to start, and sorry for the essay! I've just got soooo much I want to get out to someone that might take me seriously :)