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Sensory overload?

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hi folks went to the great Dorset steam fair today and was aiming to avoid as much of the chaos as possible, focus on what I wanted to see,keep my head down and cope, my family decided to stop and watch an army motorcycle display team called the white caps.

Well ok if we have to,I grit my teeth and join the crowds of other people.

It was actually quite good,lots of precision riding,cross crossing very close,very exciting,

Then it was announced it would be the last ever show after ninety years as it was no longer considered contemporary.

well as I watched the show and saw the expressions of the riders and the true proffessionalism I got very upset? By the end I was crying? I am not sure why but I felt a big sadness for the twenty odd young and old service men who had worked so hard to keep the tradition going. I was an emotional wreck and had to walk ahead of my family so they couldn't see the tears,

Later in the day we went to see a World War One exhibit,it had pretty much everything,vehicles,clothing,first aid,weapons but also had dugout trenches which you could walk through, I couldn't bring myself to do it? I was very upset about it being a highlite,people were laughing and smiling as they came out?

We were taught about the two great wars at school,and every child cried after watching and listening from veterans who went through the cruel reality of it.

I had to walk away again in tears?

I am not in a bad way mentally right now so is it just an accumulation of hundreds of noisy people and the noise from fairground rides etc. I don't enjoy the hassle and bustle but if I focus on getting to where I want to be I usually shut it all out. My heart rate usually goes up.

I got to talk to some very nice exhibitors,steam traction engines,small mechanical models etc. Nice genuine people.

  • Hi Lone

    knew you were going to the Dorset Steam Fair and do admit I was quite concerned. I live local to the venue and know how massive the event can be.... 

    the exhibitors, as you say are lovely folk....but it has become such a massive event....lots of traffic, noise, people, etc.  Hope you're ok.

    i spent a quiet couple of hours at the beach yesterday ...but still cried three times!.....just a rise up of emotion...just a way of managing a build up of emotion, I guess, like opening up a pressure valve.

    take care

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    I'm thinking you may actually be the healthiest in terms of emotions you've ever been in your life.

    Those are things to be sad about for the wonderful people who've conserved and tended them. The pain and horror of war and how 100 years on we've still got old men sending young men to their death.

    You have been doing a lot of emotional work since you got diagnosed, I can see it in your writing and I the questions you are asking. It's expressing in an odd way that emotions are closer to the surface.

    I've seen this in my SO...so I do get it

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    You can do it, even if it's not ideal. I hope you enjoy what you can and want to. Wish I had something more useful to offer, take care Mr Warrior.  Virtual hug?

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    Hi thank you for answering, The army have been told it is no longer needed? Probably just another cutback? I imagine if it wasn't the fact our queen likes horses so much that also would be cut.I happen to think our monarchy have a roll to play so that comment wasn't me having a dig!

    I do seem to be letting my emotions come to the forefront just lately,maybe the real me plus quite a bit extra. I really hate crowds but being as old as I am I have learnt to cope,it is never easy and given a choice I wouldn't go there. If I wish to see old steam traction engines and live in the bygone era then I just put up with ignorant pushy people.

    I did have a bit of a moment with family this morning! Don't wish to talk about it in detail but was about autism.

    hopefully tomorrow will be better?

    just feeling like going home right now,But then I would be losing out on what I enjoy,better just grin and toe the line.

  • I don't find it surprising that these things affected you so deeply Warrior, there is a generational shift most likely in deciding the stunt/formation riders are somehow 'old hat'.  I don't think it is true and watching human skill among people who have trained to the extreme in anything is always compelling viewing, even if it's something you didn't think you were interested in. 

    I would suspect a 'new broom' in the production department of the show that probably envisage computer simulations and interactive attractions etc.  One day people will realise again that people and creatures are the fascinating thing on this planet, not technology in and of itself.  Not at all sure I've said what I meant there.

    As for the war exhibit, that is powerful stuff, I studied Wilfred Owen and Siegfried Sassoon's poetry for A' level and as disaffected as I was by then as a student, it took huge emotional chunks out of me to even glimpse the horror of that... that what... misery, hell, futile waste.  I would find it very hard to see people coming out of that exhibit laughing, but it doesn't necessarily mean it didn't touch them at all.

    You are unfolding childhood memories and talking here like you haven't been able to most of your life, it's exposing and I think it's completely reasonable to feel a little emotionally raw.  To make connections you have to let stuff in and out and that comes with risks and vulnerability.  Not at all sure this is any help, or that I've said what I meant to, but I tried.  Hope you have some peace with yourself.